You've been fighting for it all your life
(Thursday, September 25, 2014 @ 12:33 AM)
SOULS
When two souls fall in love, there is nothing else but the yearning to be close to the other. The presence that is felt through a hand held, a voice heard, or a smile seen.
Souls do not have calendars or clocks, nor do they understand the notion of time or distance. They only know how it feels right to be with one another.
This is the reason why you miss someone so much when they are not there—even if they are only in the very next room. Your soul only feels their absence—it doesn't realize the separation is temporary.
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Can I ask you something?
Anything.
Why is it every time we say goodnight, it feels like good-bye?
—Lullabies (Lang Leav)
lol me right now with promos coming up in a few hours.....
can't even decide if I'm actually ready for promos or not (or who will ever be fully ready for an exam?)
I know that I've failed myself and I dont know. I already know what the outcome will be so why am I doing this??? I don't want to do this anymore??? I didn't enter JC to face a BIG 2 years of constant stress and anxiety that oh if I slack I won't achieve anything?? WHY IS IT THAT OUR GRADES DEFINE OUR INTELLIGENCE? and if you retain you waste one year and if you don't do well for A Levels there goes your future? I can't decide how screwed up this education system worldwide is but it's definitely the worst end of the spectrum and I wouldn't want my child to grow up in Singapore (maybe besides primary school education) TAKE ME OUT OF SG PLS.
promos hasn't begun but heck, I feel like the whole world is already crashing down on me.
'O' levels didn't even feel this bad? All I remember is playing Bloons TD with Elliot and Keiyun during night study sessions, skipping Lit lessons because I could, having night walks all around AHS and lying down everywhere in school coz it felt more like home back there.... Well as much as I hate AHS I really miss the teachers pushing us and being cute and providing support for us for months?? So different in JC you don't feel like your cohort is moving together as one towards a common goal...... man I miss those feelings.
whatever, I don't care anymore let's just try.
my head is a hive of words that won't settle. (I don't even know where to start)
well on a brighter (like 100% BRIGHTNESS) note, 6 more days to ((partial)) freedom??? I can bake, LoL, visit cafes on my own with my Lang Leav/Murakami books for all the much needed alone time.
CANNOT WAIT TILL ALL OF THIS IS OVER!!!!!
"Maybe there's something you're afraid to say, someone you're afraid to love or somewhere you're afraid to go. It's gonna hurt. It's gonna hurt because it matters."
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