This one week break has been good I guess. Went to watch City of Bones with a few classmates on the 6th, studied with the ass on Monday & Wednesday. Gave meeting xin, charm & bb up bc i had plans on that day alr;-; Swam with the slowpoke on Wednesday after studying/Starbucks w him, yq & the ass. I don't even feel like studying anymore hahaha. met up with shermaine, zh, yy & their tuition friend yesterday to study heh cute sia :3 

Then yesterday night was I guess... Lousy? I don't know. I can't give you what you want, neither can I give you what you need. Not because I don't want to, but because of my thinking rn, I can't. I really want to talk to you.. But it'll be better if you forget me. It's tough being best friends when there are feelings, be it one sided or two. And I'm sorry it was tough for you. Being this way & ignoring you would actually help you, because I don't want to make you upset or anything. There are things I don't want to do; make someone upset, or make myself upset. So it'll be better this way. Maybe after you forget this then I'll talk to you. It hurts to see you this way, I swear. I hate it when you're all just flustered, and you just kick everything off your bed in anger and confusion because of me. I hate to hear you cry, because you deserve to be happy. All along you've been working your way to forget someone, and now you deserve to be happy. I can't give you that, so I really wish you can find someone else. I can't bring myself to talk to you just bc I want you in my life, then watch you get hurt cause of me. It's selfish. & it's not that easy to watch that happen. 

I'll still care. I'll find some ways, but not directly anymore. Sorry to you, I know you'll be reading this. All the best for tomorrow's papers.