Dark grey all alone.
(Tuesday, March 19, 2013 @ 12:02 AM)
How can anyone not love Augustus..
“I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.”
Hoping hard enough they'll make a movie out of this. He's just perfect :3
Overthinking at its best, I don't know why am I feeling this way but, but. Sigh. Out of the past 7 months we didn't talk, 2 months was stupidly spent hating you, trying to figure out why were things like that and why did you do/ did you not do some certain things. The other 5 trying to decide a day when to get it back.
It feels just so distant now, I can't expect it to be okay at the snap of my fingers but I hate this feeling, I hate it. I hate knowing your importances to me but finding out that I actually don't mean much anymore. I can't blame anyone but myself. Because I took it in my hands, and crushed it without even thinking of what would happen. Trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller with every mistake you make? C'mon, I threw the entire thing away... Why did I, I cannot fathom. They tell me things will be better. I hope so too. But things will never be the same cause in this friendship there'll always be this hole that isn't filled, and left there. Here's to me who never considers the consequences: think carefully next time.
Getting late and I'm up here thinking of what it would be like in future. Regardless of friendships, education & family ties. Idk. I end up screwing things up, idek. I wanna go Temasek poly. :/ I wanna take veterinary bioscience.. And like its just a 15-20 bus ride+walk from home :3 will the friendships still be the same? What will happen if my siblings get married. Ha ha ha, the things I think of at night... Probably not heading to TP tomorrow. I'm too lazy I guess I'm gonna just go to ccp to have my breakfast, study then get my vans, I hope the sizes are still available tho.
"Maybe there's something you're afraid to say, someone you're afraid to love or somewhere you're afraid to go. It's gonna hurt. It's gonna hurt because it matters."
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