nothing left to fear
(Monday, January 21, 2013 @ 6:28 PM)
“Some people say that’s escapism. But that’s fine by me. I live my life, you live yours. It you’re clear about what you want, then you can live any way you please. I don’t give a damn about what people say. They can be reptile food for all I care. That’s how I looked at things when I was your age and I guess that’s how I look at things now. Does that mean I have arrested development? Or have I been right all these years? I’m still waiting on the answer to that one.”
I tried to believe every word of your sweet story, but intuition keeps telling me you're making a fool out of me. Everything felt so right, & seems like just yesterday you were a part of me. But it's for the best we keep our distance, I think I prefer it like that, then I wouldn't have to bother so much, at least I won't keep caring.
I kinda want you. bad.
Sometimes people come around saying what's real men, what's real women. But honestly, what's real and what's fake? Literature lessons taught me that you'll never know what's right, what's wrong. What if us people were the different ones from others, compared to those who were born different from us, they were the norm, and we're different, just too many of us. What if? Lol this topic is so damn wide. Random thought. ,_, Then if you were of the opposite gender, what would you do if you weren't categorized as a real man? Uhm, just cuz you don't treat do certain stuff you're a fake man, what. Life's so damn fragile, I've learnt that. It's gone so easily, first it was last April 17, then now, something happened again. This time, I don't know that person personally, but yet again, how many times do people have to be gone for us to notice that they're there? I keep reminding myself not to take things for granted, time and again I keep doing that, it's like it's never satisfactory, you're always hungry for more than what you have. Same things apply for me, I want to learn how to appreciate people; I don't want to regret after losing them. Stop trying to change for someone, really, or change to be like someone. The only person you should try to be better than, is the person you were yesterday. You don't have to change for someone, because when someone comes along they'll look at you — accept you for who you are, your flaws. Don't ever try to change for someone, is it that worth it? When the right time comes, there'll be someone there who loves every little thing about you, even your flaws. Maybe just not now. Sometimes when you're smart, you hold on. But you have to be braver than you're smarter to let go because all it does is hurt you. Lol things around me have been triggering my emotions.. I honestly don't know where things are going to take me. But I hope as life passes day by day I'll learn new things everyday. Still unsure of what's gna happen.
our conversations used to last so long, and now it's just dead. WHY? why the change, why did it turn out this way.
"The fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control, against such things there is no law." -Galatians 5:22-23
"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever." -Winnie the Pooh
“Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, I’m scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you.”
"I told you everything; opened up and let you in. You made me feel alright for once in my life. Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be — so together, but so broken up inside"
Am I supposed to be contented with my results or... but still happy my lit improved, not by alot, but at least it improved. :)
"Maybe there's something you're afraid to say, someone you're afraid to love or somewhere you're afraid to go. It's gonna hurt. It's gonna hurt because it matters."
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